It’s so hard to trust in myself sometimes. I know I can write. I actually had that reenforced today with a proposal from my instructor. She offered to help me prepare my term paper for publishing. I’d never thought about having anything I’d written academically published. I certainly never expected my first publication to be something technical. Despite the affirmation today, I don’t feel qualified to write a blog post.
Perhaps I read too many blogs. I end up comparing myself to other writers too often. I read the lengthy posts about the wonderful lives and wonderful recipes some people come up with. Other times I read short posts with multiple photographs. Both seem appropriate and correct. Yet, my own feel just not good enough. They don’t fit the mold. Sometimes they’re not even me. I end up doing them the way I think they’re supposed to be done. I feel ashamed when I write that way. I should write with my own voice. The only times I seem to are when I’m mad at myself, or when I’m feeling bad for something as I am now.
One thing I really need to do is make a list of blog posts which need to be written. Then, I should write one of them a week. However, I don’t always feel like I have something to say that is worth other people reading. I have in my Omnifocus “Write a Blog Article.” It comes up once a week. I don’t always do it though. Perhaps you’ve noticed.
I’m a busy woman. I’m quite sure other bloggers will say, “Well, so am I!” I get that. I’m certain they are. I read about how busy their lives are every day. They get up and run many miles, or work full time jobs in and out of the home. Still, I’m not one of those people for whom much occupation makes for enjoyment. I’m growing utterly fond of the slow pace of life in Hawai‘i. Once all of my school work, my work in the home, and my social and volunteer activities top everything I just feel ready to be done.
Based on this post, you may wonder why I’m even keeping a blog. Well, I do enjoy it. I like writing down my thought and sharing the latest information I have with you all. Putting my honest opinion about restaurants and products out there makes me feel good. I want people to be sure they’re getting multiple points of view on an issue.
Speaking of which, I’ve been thinking about either creating a new blog outside of this one so I can write about my daily life, opinions on human rights and political issues, and more. In addition, I’m thinking I should lean toward the shorter blog posts with more photographs. I used to think more was appropriate, but with my little time and my new iPhone for photographs I am thinking it’s time for a change.
What do you think? Keep the personal separate from the gluten free website? How would I regather the people I follow on twitter, and the people who follow me? Would shorter blog posts, but more, be better than what I’m currently doing (which is sporadically posting and feeling bad about it)?
I respect your opinions and I hope to hear from you all.