Yesterday I let off some steam on my twitter account. I expressed that I was angry that I wasn’t going on my trip this month. I would like to apologize for venting in such a manner. I should have stepped away from my computer and released my frustration elsewhere. I didn’t stop to think. I just typed. Sometimes the internet can be such a great way to release stress, but it would have been better to do it in my personal diary.
Recently I read on a blog that Shauna of Gluten Free Girl stated at a speaking engagement that one of the best things a blogger can do is to be honest in their writing. Well, I will be honest in saying that I do terribly with change sometimes. Especially in a change of plans. I end up putting so much energy into things that I become completely invested in them. When those things change, I can lose it. This time in addition to my normal aversion to change I was also dealing with those womanly things we go through every month, and a week’s worth of silent glutening. So, needless to say, I was extra anxious and irritable.
Yet, as I said there is no excuse for my behavior and I would like to apologize for it. I will still be going on my trip next month, and all is still right in the world. I just get to have time to get acclimated to my new classes this fall, and I will have plenty of time next month to focus on my homework while we’re on our trip. Being stuck in a hotel room far from everywhere helps when you’ve got a lot of homework to do.
I’m glad I have the opportunity to apologize to you all, and to say, this is me. I’m not perfect, but I can choose to have a great life if I want it. I can learn to go with the flow if I only try.
I hope this also helps some of you who also have difficulties with change. You’ll be fine, life happens, and we can all get through it.